Inner Progress
No songwriting or piano practice this week this week, and outside of some delightful social (social media) interactions with prospective "birds," nothing new to report in the flying dept.
This week My 86 year old father had surgery. The risk was low, but when you are 86, the risks are never low for surgery. He came through like a champ and was downright amazing in his comedic abilities within an hour of coming out of anesthesia. he is doing really very well. We are hoping that this surgery was also successful to get rid of spending which has been hindering his mobility, diet, and social life. This was my main focus this whole week.
It is amazing though, how the things you most need can be granted when it seems like you have laid aside your aspirations. This week was perhaps the most effective is months dare I say years, is lifting so heavy stuff form my heart. Some of the conversations this week, though mainly focused on the care of my parents, contained some asides which lifted ominous overwhelmingly heavy concerns form my heart. Also, after 3 days of being away most of the day, Thursday I rather tore into many household tasks which had been piling up. I made great progress. I can do a little housework every day, but sometimes you have to have a cleaning spree to get the decks cleared for the little by little of each day's household tasks AND the little by little of the business of songwriting and music as a business.
When things weigh heavy on the mind, motivation and mood and mobility suffer. Right now, I sit here to be accountable to my mentor and myself, in this blog which is settling into a weekly recap, but I fell like a racehorse in waiting for the stanchion doors to be pulled up. so I can get at those last 2 areas of clutter, and run a mile on my treadmill. The weather this past spring and summer has made a lack of sunlight akin to the winter months, and that has taken a toll on people, myself included. But today, there is sunlight streaming into my soul in places which had been as dark as a cave. My soul is taking it in. The dark and the light are both necessary, though none of us would want to choose darkness. From personal experience, lyrics are coming!
This was a very good week. Next week, I do believe that I will finally be able to have a pattern to each day, including my fitness, writing and piano practice, and con-ed per the flying goals. I often tell my band 'family first' to assure them that I am not holding them captive. For me, right now, this week of family and extended family has smashed out limiting walls.
I'd be remiss not to mention that yesterday marked 32 years of marriage. We said Hi in the morning on our way to our work for the day, and he stopped in quick with a bouquet pretty flowers over his lunch hour,then we said hi as one of the kids transferred from my van to his car, then when home our youngest had a cake for us, then the 2 youngest, adult but still at home as communing students and savers of $ for house downpayments, literally talked to us till we fell asleep. Tonight we will go out for a few hours to mark the occasion. Next week is poco a poco, then the next is out of town. Bring it all on, because I am ready for it! It is good to smile, and there is sunshine in my heart and mind, though today's weather is another damp gray days where sunrise forgot to show up.
This week My 86 year old father had surgery. The risk was low, but when you are 86, the risks are never low for surgery. He came through like a champ and was downright amazing in his comedic abilities within an hour of coming out of anesthesia. he is doing really very well. We are hoping that this surgery was also successful to get rid of spending which has been hindering his mobility, diet, and social life. This was my main focus this whole week.
It is amazing though, how the things you most need can be granted when it seems like you have laid aside your aspirations. This week was perhaps the most effective is months dare I say years, is lifting so heavy stuff form my heart. Some of the conversations this week, though mainly focused on the care of my parents, contained some asides which lifted ominous overwhelmingly heavy concerns form my heart. Also, after 3 days of being away most of the day, Thursday I rather tore into many household tasks which had been piling up. I made great progress. I can do a little housework every day, but sometimes you have to have a cleaning spree to get the decks cleared for the little by little of each day's household tasks AND the little by little of the business of songwriting and music as a business.
When things weigh heavy on the mind, motivation and mood and mobility suffer. Right now, I sit here to be accountable to my mentor and myself, in this blog which is settling into a weekly recap, but I fell like a racehorse in waiting for the stanchion doors to be pulled up. so I can get at those last 2 areas of clutter, and run a mile on my treadmill. The weather this past spring and summer has made a lack of sunlight akin to the winter months, and that has taken a toll on people, myself included. But today, there is sunlight streaming into my soul in places which had been as dark as a cave. My soul is taking it in. The dark and the light are both necessary, though none of us would want to choose darkness. From personal experience, lyrics are coming!
This was a very good week. Next week, I do believe that I will finally be able to have a pattern to each day, including my fitness, writing and piano practice, and con-ed per the flying goals. I often tell my band 'family first' to assure them that I am not holding them captive. For me, right now, this week of family and extended family has smashed out limiting walls.
I'd be remiss not to mention that yesterday marked 32 years of marriage. We said Hi in the morning on our way to our work for the day, and he stopped in quick with a bouquet pretty flowers over his lunch hour,then we said hi as one of the kids transferred from my van to his car, then when home our youngest had a cake for us, then the 2 youngest, adult but still at home as communing students and savers of $ for house downpayments, literally talked to us till we fell asleep. Tonight we will go out for a few hours to mark the occasion. Next week is poco a poco, then the next is out of town. Bring it all on, because I am ready for it! It is good to smile, and there is sunshine in my heart and mind, though today's weather is another damp gray days where sunrise forgot to show up.
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